I Feel Like A Monster

Raye - as per usual - was singing. Unlike the last time she randomly burst into song - a happy chorus of the original 4kids Pokémon theme - this was not a happy song.

The wolf laid on her side on her black blanket, almost completely eaten sheep carcass laying about a foot away, singing to herself, mindful of the open door opposite her and the students outside of said door.

"The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster."

The deep sadness in her voice as she sang and the single line of wet fur under her eyes was the only indication towards her feelings. The rest of her was lying languidly, as if in sleep.

Having gotten lost from her dormitory, Alicia was dutifully exploring this one, her curiosity guiding her rather than her worry of not finding her way back to her own room. And she let it, for it usually helped her to discover new things which she exitedly awaited. The Eala'Sionnach dorms were not so different from the Caora'Dobhran dorms only the colour and name plates on doors she noted differed. "It shouldn't be too hard to find my way back" Alicia thought.

Upon hearing the sad voice of someone singing Alicia halted in her tracks, she looked around till she found the source of the voice coming from a nearby ajar door and approached cautiously. She peeked in slowly and called a "hello?" then waited for an answer.

Raye lifted her head from the floor and glared at the door half-heartedly before dropping back to the ground with a sigh. She had been caught singing so much now she really didn't care too much any more.

The wolf heaved herself to her feet and padded over towards the door. She figured she should try and be friendly. Ignoring whoever it was at the door wouldn't be that great. And right now the Jinn needed company.

She nosed the door further open and raised her head to get a look at the person. She squinted a little when she caught sight of the face. She could have sworn she had seen that face before but no name came to mind.

She lurched forwards, pressing her torso against the ground and stretching her rear high. A loud series of cracks and pops echoed through the near empty room and halls.

"Hi, I'm Raye." She had given up on introducing herself with the second half of her name. People never used it.

"O-oh!" she exclaimed, perplexed that it was not a person singing, but a wolf! not only that the wolf was speaking! what a wonderfully curious encounter. She cringed a little at the sound of cracking joints but knelt down anyway to inspect the Jinn "Hello~, I'm Alicia nice to meet you Raye." She was very tempted to reach out her hand and ruffle the wolf's head as she would Lunie because of how fluffy Raye's fur looked. However the deep crimson eyes made her wary and that didn't seem like a very polite thing to do to someone she had just met.

Her head tilted to the side at the exclamation. Hadn't she seen shifters before? Or had she just not seen that many?

"It's a pleasure, Alicia." The Jinn's head didn't return to upright status. It continued to stay tilted as if in question.

"I'm guessing my singing bought you here? Too loud again... sorry." She needed to work on keeping her singing quiet.

Alicia has most likely seen a few shape shifters in her time, short conversations at school events that she has a hard time remembering. Speaking to one, conversing with one, meeting one, however, was new to her.

"Yes ah no it wasn't too loud... um" Her head tilted joining the Jinn in a puzzled manner. "it sounded... sad? but uh interesting i guess!" Alicia struggled to find words, she didn't want to sound insulting "i thought i would investigate or something..." she shifted on her feet uneasy about what to say.

If she were human, her lip would have twitched. "You don't have to make things up; its sad and depressing. I know."

She stood and backed up a few steps, sitting down again on the blanket laid out on the floor that served as her bed. "You can come in if you want. I promise I wont burst into any more depressive songs."